I Can Dream My Mom Is Still Here (Thrive Global)

I Can Dream My Mom Is Still Here (Thrive Global)

It has been such a source of internal distress for me that my mom has never appeared in one of my dreams. I am going on 7 long years of managing to function without her daily visits, phone calls, and emails (anything but texting; she died as an unapologetic flip phone...
Mother’s Day, Interrupted (Thrive Global)

Mother’s Day, Interrupted (Thrive Global)

I am about to tuck and roll into my seventh Motherless Mother’s Day. The intense, cyclical crush of grief, longing, and loneliness is familiar and expected at this point, but, now, during the COVID-19 pandemic, it’s magnified to the heavens. My beloved mom and I have...
I Let Go of My Mom’s Stuff for Mother’s Day

I Let Go of My Mom’s Stuff for Mother’s Day

My mother stood in front of her ornate china cabinet, crammed with crystal and glass and silver, and traced her tired, swollen fingers across a weathered bowl. “This is an antique,” she said, her once forceful voice barely audible. “Oh, and so is this one,” she...
3:00 a.m. Messages for Mother’s Day

3:00 a.m. Messages for Mother’s Day

I recently inexplicably started the daunting task of sifting through old emails, trying to make a dent in the 20,000 or so that have been clogging my oldest inbox for years. During my latest stolen session of unearthing and trashing emails in the middle of my...